ticking clock
January 21st, 2009 |I chatted (G chatted that is) with T3 earlier today regarding his news. It sounds like things are pointing towards a positive outcome so far, but I have to say that his announcement shook me to my core.
Most kids, me included, grow up feeling indestructible. Injuries are shaken off easily or healed up quickly, bodies are flexible and durable. There is no fear of the future.
That started to change for me when I hit 30. I pulled a groin muscle making a 3 point shot with a wadded up fax. I could not believe it. I had never pulled a muscle like that before doing something as insignificant.
Throughout the rest of my 30’s I noticed that the flexible and durable body started to take a bit longer to recover from hard workouts or injury. No longer feeling indestructible, I had not really thought about it for a few years. Now a feeling of vulnerability started to creep into my mind.
The last few years I have paid keen attention as acquaintances begin to experience and suffer from ailments. Friends parents begin to pass away. I dread the possibility that something serious goes wrong with someone that I care about.
It’s inevitable of course. A clock is ticking for all of us. I am trying to decide if I am more worried that something will happen to me or to someone close to me? Is my worry for the health of my friends and family just a projection of a worry for myself?
It would be great if we all died of old age. That’s not going to happen. I try to focus on the here and now, enjoy my family and my friends, not worry so much about the future. I really try.
T3, you are responsible to solve this issue so I can move on to worrying about something or someone else. All my best wishes to you.
7 Responses to “ticking clock”
Nicely said Smithers! And SO true, but fortunate that you have those realizations!
After spending 10 years in a job where human mortality is faced and battled on a daily basis, I’ve learned that any day in which my wife and kids are healthy, and I just feel OK, is a great day.
All that annoying crap about ‘don’t sweat the small stuff’ is the f’ing truth.
T3 – hang in there. I don’t know you from a ham sandwich, but I’m sincerely hoping for a full, rapid recovery.
Actually, T3 is a ham sandwich.
@Smithers: Incidentally, I just ate him for lunch. Could’ve used a bit more mayo, IMO.
@Checkbook – Did he give you indigestion?
T3 is an awesome guy. Thanks for putting this out there Smither’s, I hope this generated a lot of positive thoughts for him.
Well put homeboy. There is a commercial for some kind of diet pills or plan or something where a woman is judo kicking donuts the size of grader tires out of the way. Mmmmmmmmm, giant donuts…
@Little d: word.